Sunday, January 29, 2012

Looking in that photo album, I see--


This holiday season I decided  to make a few gifts for my friends and family. One of the ideas I had, was to make these little memory boxes with pictures in them. I got these metallic boxes, at a craft store, that were in the shape of Chinese take out containers. They each had two places, one in the front and one on the back, to put pictures. 
After the purchase had been made and I now had the boxes themselves, it was time to select the pictures I would use, for each of my family members. It was not an easy task, to choose only two pictures, and write about what made those memories so special. Going through the photos was an emotional roller coaster.
The majority of pictures, naturally,  were of when I was living back at home. Going to Rye and York beach, pictures of us on all Christmas, and at my little brother Riley's football games. Looking back at those photographs were really bitter sweet; I'm happy to have had them but am sad that they are less frequent. 
Making these gifts reminded me of some of the good times I have already have; and it gave me promise of more adventures to come. 

It was the first, but not the best--or was it?


In 2005, the summer going into my senior year of high school, I successfully passed my driver's test. My parents gave me their retired, morose maroon colored, Ford Taurus station wagon. I was given this car, to help my parents pick my brothers up and drop them off from sports related events, usually practices; but responsibilities or not, I now had my very own car and that was exciting. 
The car had over 100,000 miles on it, but it ran fine. There was no air conditioning, so heat of the summer, we all had to deal with our hair getting tossed around by the wind. In the winer time, the car would omit warm air, but not without a musty stench. Parking and backing out of parking spots was not easy in this long car. 
 It did have two seats, in the very back, that faced looking out the window. Friends and myself on occasion, would be silly and ride back there, with one person in front acting as chauffeur. It also had a long roof, because it was a station wagon, which was the perfect spot to look at the stars at night. Having
a set of wheels allowed me to get my first real job, as a clerk at a local store. 
So even though the car didn't have all the bells and whilstles, I still loved it because it was all mine. It also allowed me a new level of independence, which as a teenager, was priceless. 

The stuff I've collected over the years in my little box/bureau drawer/keepsake chest marks every step of my way


My dark, velvet lined abyss of a jewelry box is a collection of accessories that I have had throughout various times of my life. When I adoren myself with one of these archives, its like an instant walk back in time. 
I have little colorful plastic barrettes in the shapes of flowers and butterflies, which I worn in high school. You normally see them worn on babies, but I frequently used them to zest up an outfit. They were funky and completely out of fashion at the time, so I thought they were the greatest. 
I have a diamond tennis bracelet, that my grandfather gave me for my 18th birthday. My mom threw together a surprise birthday party for me that year, the only one I've ever had. I thought my mom and I were going out for a quiet dinner, but when I turned the corner and saw all my friends and family, I knew I had been duped. My grandfather gave me this bracelet, at my party and he told me that he was proud of me. 
I also have a shell necklace, in this sea of jewelry, that I got while I was in Mexico. My family and I traveled down south, right after I graduated high school. We went to a safe tourist town but anytime we left our hotel to adventure, it was a little dicey. I got that necklace from a market in a neighboring town and like to think of it as a symbol of victory, for getting out of there in one piece.
I also have a bracelet I got while in the Virgin Islands, on St. Croix. Its a silver, small bracelet that clasps in the front, like a hook. This is a signature Crucian hook bracelet, said to give you love and luck. You wear it a certain way if you are single and another if you are taken. This is my favorite piece of jewelry, not just because of the way it looks but because when I wear it I think back to this tropical paradise. 

Tuesday, January 24, 2012

Week 1, Part 1, Autobiography of a Writer as a Writer


1st Person:

I've never been a big reader but I have always enjoyed to write. Ever since I was young, as far back as I can remember, I was writing. Not in a journal context but more of stories and the like. I would write and even illustrate my own works.

I would, as any good writer, enjoyed developing my characters and grew to love them. My first, favorite character, was a cat named Thorough. Thorough as in "That analysis was thorough". Quite a big word for the average third grader. I remember that I liked the way that word sounded and it was a simple as that. Thorough had many adventures, as I'm sure my parents painstakingly recall, as I would read ALL of the stories to them at bed time.

In the fourth and fifth grade I was obsessed with the "Goosebumps" series. They were books of the mystery genre and some were a little dark. This fueled my imagination and I would try to write short stories similar to those. Thorough and her adventures were tossed aside, replaced by children my age, trying to escape from haunted houses and evil "everyday" objects, which came to life.

In Middle and High School I had a rough personal life and writing helped me get through the toughest of times. My writing turned into poems, which I hoped someday would become song lyrics. These were usually pretty angry and dark; but I know that they were valuable because I was using my imagination. My senior year I took a Poetry class, in my last semester, with some of my best friends. It was the best way to wrap up that chapter of my life. I found a way to make my writings seem less dark and more inspiring, which was how I was trying to focus my energy.


In college I was required to write a lot. I loved trying to find creative ways to say the things I needed to. For my Liberal Studies degree requirement I needed to take an additional English class, which led me to writing for the school newspaper. That was the proudest moment I had writing.


2nd Person:


You've always loved to write. The way writing makes you use your mind, stretching the limits of your imagination, and gets your creative juices flowing. The rush of new ideas and new ways to tell the stories you want to tell is unlike any other spark of genius. It gets you hooked to keep writing to see what you come up with next.


From stories in your childhood, to poems in your teenage years, each piece has been an exciting challenge to compose. You started writing about things that you loved and grew to love to write something beautiful out of the mondane.


You've always been a little shy about your writing and were always a little apprehensive to share your newest creation. That changed when you took a poetry class, in high school, where you strutted your stuff in front of peers and friends alike. In a warm environment it was easy to share and now that scariness has been lifted for you.


In college you wrote speeches, lengthy papers and newspaper articles. It was a whole new avenue of writing. Some pieces had strict guidelines with rubrics and grading requirements. That had you striving for perfection. Newspaper articles had their own set of demands. They needed to be interesting enough to hook a reader, in a sea of other pieces; and most importantly, they needed to be relatable to the students in which you were writing for. Either way was a work out for your mind, but it was always worth the effort.


3rd Person: 

She had always been told that she was creative, with a knack for writing; but it wasn't until  her papers came back, with acceptable grades, that she felt validated. She used to be very shy about her works, mainly because she was her own worst critic. By the time she was writing academically her shyness was replaced by confidence, which she would need when she started writing for her college's newspaper, the Eagle Eye. 

She initially was apprehensive about taking a course to write for the student newspaper. She already had a lot of demanding classes that semester, like Anatomy and Physiology, that would soaked up her time like a sponge. It was her second year and fourth semester, so if she wanted to graduate on time she would have to take the class to fulfill an English requirement. Honestly, she couldn't see herself doing well asking a stranger questions and reporting back; but before she knew it she was interviewing the school's Director of Nursing. 

The course itself was very structured, as the professor would tell the class what issues needed to be written about and the students would choose. There was always room for questions and if you wanted to write about something else there was always an ear to listen and someone to give it a shot. The class had about seven students to start and dwindled down to about five, by the end of the first few weeks. The topics that she would choose from excited her and before she knew it she was on assignment. 

It was a whole new world for her, sitting down with someone, pen in hand, with a list of questions she was dying to ask. She would bring a tape recorder, as accurately quoting her interviewee's is a skill that all journalists need to master. She interviewed students and a wide variety of faculty members about what was going on in the ever changing and expanding college. The fun part for her, of the whole reporting processes, was taking all that gathered information and turning it into something that would captivate the readers. For example, the prospect of a new parking lot is not ordinarily exciting, but she could try and make it so. 

The articles themselves were graded, but to her, nothing was more satisfying than a peer telling her that they read what she wrote and that they liked it. 

Monday, January 23, 2012

Journal Day 7

Sunday, January 22nd, 2012

Today is a football Sunday, as there are two NFL division championship games on the line. The game's outcome will determine who will play in the Super Bowl. First, the Patriots play the Baltimore Ravens for the AFC Championship. I am still feeling ill, so I stay in and watch the entirety of the game with my puppy. The Patriots won that game by a field goal.
This is an all day event, as this game and the game after that (the 49ers vs. the Giants) will determine whether I make money or not at work. I have to get ready for work after the first game, which is great because I could care less about who we play in the big game.
It has been raining all day, which usually means it will be slow at work. I walk in and my theory is confirmed. For a restaurant which is usually packed, it is eerily empty; but after a long week I am fine with that, as Sundays are my workweek Fridays. TGIF. Its nice when it's not busy because its significantly less stressful. My coworkers and I get a chance to chat and that livens up the atmosphere. I can also give my guests the best service, because they have my undivided attention. It's sort of a win-win situation right now.
I take my half an hour break and I call my mom. I love talking to her because it makes me feel like I am back home, which is refreshing sometimes. We talk about our family and it makes me feel grounded. Before I know it I have been chatting for so long I don't have a chance to eat dinner. I get back to the dining room, which we call "the floor" to see that every single table in the restaurant is filled. There goes my peaceful night.
I have tables up until 11:30PM, which results in me having the last table of the night, and I don't get out until 12:00AM. I really look forward to the day that I no longer have to work into the morning hours. Which puts me back here, to this morning, where I am happy to be doing homework.







Sunday, January 22, 2012

Journal Day 6

Saturday, January 21st, 2012

Today was one of those days, where you know you can look back in a few weeks and laugh about what happened, but now is way too soon. Today I woke up, and again, feel like death. I delay getting up and doing anything about it for a few hours, then comes the coffee, the instantaneous motivator.
On Saturday mornings there is the biggest farmer's market, in the whole city, a few blocks from where we live. I unfortunately have to miss out on fresh produce this week because I have to make a run to the grocery store for cold medicine, before work. I start laundry, and head out on my mission. I come back victorious, or so I thought, and before my laundry was even ready to go to the dryer. I walk back to the garage to take my cold medicine while I wait and to my horror, the cold medicine is not in the bag. I check the receipt to find I wasn't billed for the medicine.
Furious, I head back to the grocery store. My life now is still very tied to country living, as I am constantly comparing that way of life to the way I live now. This is usually my defense mechanism for stressful situations. I thought about how far away the closest grocery store was to some of the places I've lived in Maine and New Hampshire. The house I grew up in, in Barrington, New Hampshire, was a good 15 minutes away. If this had happened there, I would have easily spent an additional 40 minutes, trying to fix the error and get on with my day. So I keep this thought in the back of my mind and continue with a positive outlook. I get a great parking spot in the store's lot and I walk back to the line I waited in previously. The clerk doesn't pay me any mind. As the customers ahead were being helped I noticed the little box of store brand DayQuil, sitting by the cash register. Once it is my turn, I point to the box, and tell the clerk that I came back for my medicine. I guess he didn't see the box on the three foot conveyer belt and it was left behind. As he rang me up he told me that he didn't see it at first but then he thought I left it to the side because didn't want it anymore. I looked him dead in the eye, the base of my nose as red as a fire engine, and asked him "Does it look like I don't need cold medicine anymore?". Not my proudest moment. He mumbled some sort of apologie and I told him that I just wanted to pay and get it out of there.
When I got back I had a Belgian waffle waiting for me, as Sam had gone to the market for breakfast. Once I had medicine in me and was feeling slightly better, it was time to get ready for work. I managed to take breaks for homework and before I knew it I was out the door.


Saturday, January 21, 2012

Journal Day 5

Friday, January 20th, 2012

Feeling a little better today after some rest, I am happy to report. Not much better but I think I can last through a seven hour shift at work. One of my friends at work switched shifts with me, so I get an extra hour and a half to rest. I spend the day, like I do many others, doing my pre-work routine.
I do a few hours of homework, put on Pandora, and start to get ready for the evening. I usually ride my purple, beat-up bike, to work; but today its pouring rain. Our winter consists of days, upon days of rain, which I like better than snow. However, today is said to have thunderstorms, which is highly unusual. So to take precautions, I decided to take the bus instead. I have a bus stop right in front of my house but I have yet to use it. I put on the "Real Time" tracker, a really cool instrument to let you know when the bus is really coming (not when it says its scheduled because if its one thing I've learned about public transit, is that it goes by its own schedule).

I take Rufus for his last walk before I leave. He is so fussy and he hates the rain. I don't know if its because he doesn't like his big, pointy ears getting wet, or if its because he is spoiled. Either case, he sprints, not walks, all around until we get back home.
I take an hour to relax, while drying off my furry friend with a recently washed sweatshirt, a.k.a. doggy towel. I did mention that he is spoiled. Once the clock strikes 4:00PM, I resume getting my things together. I check the bus trackers and am disappointed to discover that it will be 40 minutes until another bus gets here, which would be cutting it way too close. I decide to walk, hoping that I will beat whatever thunderstorm we supposedly would be getting.
I make it to work with time to stop and get coffee. My restaurant is a casual dining establishment and ice creamery. It has been around since 1894. Its a cool place to work, no pun intended; but no one likes cold treats when its so damp and dreadful outside. Or so it seemed until about 8:30PM, when we went on a wait and all of the tables in the restaurant got filled with rain soaked patrons.
By 1:00AM I am almost at home, with a modest amount of money in my apron. Dreading tomorrow night's shift, from 4:30PM - 12:00AM (at least, that is just when we close)!

Journal day 4

Thursday, January 19th, 2012

Today I wake up unable to breathe out of my nose. My throat painfully sore. I immediately telephone work to let them know what state I am in. I was given a list of co-workers that were not working that night and was told me call them to see if anyone could cover for me. Exactly what I wanted to avoid, working when I should be resting. By the grace of some greater being, or maybe not, someone took pity on me and covered my shift.


Elated, I celebrate with some DayQuil/ NyQuil, my Snuggie and my puppy, Rufus. To me, there is no better cure than to snuggle with my bulldog.
After an extensive, several hour nap, I order pizza for dinner and manager to do a few hours of home work. I love online classes, because even when I am sick, I can still find a way to not fall behind.
Certainly not my most exciting day, but I am proud that I took care of myself and rested. That is surprisingly hard for me to do sometimes.



Journal Day 3


Wednesday, January 18th, 2012


I think there is one bond that ties all Americans together and its not the love of our country. It's  hatred for the Division of Motor Vehicles. I start the morning by waking up incredibly early for a night owl, 7:00AM PST, throw on clothes, and dash to El Cerrito, CA. Choosing to go to a smaller suburban town's DMV is the fastest way to get through this despicable errand. This is the second attempt to register the Maliblue hatchback (Maliblue is the official color of my car). The time before we did't have the 1 of the 100 documents that were needed, to get this over with. 
The time before was actually pretty hilarious because we had to pass a written exam, to get our California Driver's Licences . I failed twice before I got a high enough score to pass, which resulted in a picture, now forever on my license (until I get a new one), which was far from flattering. It looks as if someone were learning how to smile for the first time, but instead, conjured a smirk. I really unflattering, contemptuous smirk. I was just really annoyed and tired, which is the perfect recipe for a bad picture.
But luckily this trip was successful, which we needed it to be, because we were running out of time to get this taken care of. The motivator for the registration was a big, fat ticket (around $700) that would only be waved if it we completed this task by the 23rd. Just in the nick of time! 
Post DMV fiasco, I came home to do some work for school until it was time to go my other place of employment. I work at a famous restaurant in Oakland, right down the street. I am a full time employee, at the moment, and so far it has treated me well. I got let go early because I was feeling ill and went right to bed. 

Friday, January 20, 2012

Journal Day One and Two

Monday, January 16, 2012.

*I went out of order and worked so much on my prompts the last few days and had not read about the week long journal assignment. Here is what I would have wrote for those days, had I done so.*

Today is Martin Luther King Day. I have the day off, as a regularly scheduled weekend for me is Monday - Tuesday, as well as my boyfriend Sam. We celebrated by waking up at 12:00PM and went out for a very late breakfast. We planned the afternoon's activities over coffee, bloody mary's, and french toast.
We decided to go to the Aquatic Park, in Berkeley, CA and bring our French Bulldog Rufus. Rufus has never been here but we have been several times to play disc golf. Disc golf is essentially golf, with a tee and only a certain number of tries per hole; but you play with tiny frisbies or discs. Its a lot of fun. Sam was the only one that played, while the puppy and I would run ahead and act as markers for where the disc fell.
We are all exhausted when we get home. I can't nap or relax because I know I have so much on my plate for tomorrow, as it is the start of school. I am excited to try online classes, as I have never taken one before. I feel like I am motivated enough to rely on myself to get the work done. That makes me feel a little more confident at least.
After dinner we watch Wes Anderson's film Fantastic Mr. Fox and go to bed shortly thereafter.



Tuesday, January 17th, 2012

Today is the start of school, which means the first day of my online college career. I am nervous; but I also have so much to do today that the nervousness subsides. I really hope I do well, as these three remaining courses are all I need to fulfill my requirements for an associates degree.
I start by driving an hour north to San Rafael, CA, to drop off Sam at work. The drive is a beautiful one, over the Richmond Bridge. The beautiful blue bay instantly reminds me that my errands today are to keep my new life here afloat (no pun intended).
I go shopping for school supplies and other things and before I know it there are only four hours until I have to make another hour long trip up north. So I grab more coffee and start writing my prompts. Its exciting to write again, I haven't really done any writing since I wrote for the newspaper and EMCC in the spring of 2009. That was an experience I will never forget and cherish.
Before I know it its past 6:00PM and I am back at home. Dinner arrives at 7:00PM, the finest Chinese food in all of Alameda County. Then its back to the books and I eventually relax with an episode of BBC's Human Planet. Fascinating stuff. Humans surviving in various places in the world with the help of their animal friends. This one was about Jungles.
By 11:00PM it is surely time for bed, especially because tomorrow starts my work week. I'm glad this day is done.


Alone in a quiet room. What do you see?

I'm alone, in my living room, sitting on the most hideous and uncomfortable couch on planet earth. Directly in front of me a is an all-in-one coffee table/ dining room table/ book shelf / hassock (on occasion). Behind that is a dusty entertainment center, where the oversized plasma tv displays me drinking my steaming second cup of coffee. Or maybe its my third, you can never be too sure. 
A modest collection of succulents are sitting on a utility shelf, in front of my window, behind the neglected electronics. My schlumbergera, commonly referred to as the Christmas Cactus, has bloomed four or five pink little flowers. This indoor jungle began more than a year ago, when we first got a place here in Oakland. It all started with two baby spider plants, which now sit on the top rung of the shelving unit. Their leaves are easily two feet long and they drape down like strips of fabric would. 
The best part of the view is all of the life on display, either in front of or beyond my window. The plants help to gussy up my view of the NASCAR track of our fair state, a.k.a the freeway. The green exit signs and the green trees also aid in this effort. I'm still terrified to drive on the I-580 death trap; but it reminds me that the world outside is unfamiliar territory. Which is why moved so far from home, for all of the exciting and sometimes scary, new experiences.

Alone in a quiet room. Listen. What do you hear?


I'm mostly alone, in a room as quiet as it will ever be. I have one sleepy french bulldog who is lying next to me as I sit and type. My brachycephalic companion can't sleep without snoring loudly, but I think it add to his charm.
My heater is on and that generates most of the noise in here. This apartment came with a very meager heating system, one of which I have never seen before. Its got a 1'x1' vent that sucks in the air at the top of one of the walls and a matching vent that blows out the air at the bottom. This is the only way we have to heat the place so it requires that we open all of the doors in the apartment. First world problems.
The remaining lull comes from the interstate, which we live so close to. Back at home the still of the night used to really scare me. It was almost as if it were too quiet. On the other hand, when I visited friends in Boston, I was amazed by how much noise they could sleep through. Ambulances would come screaming down the street or the "T" would come to a screeching halt and they would sleep right through. I thought I would never become accustomed to such loud 
interruptions while trying to get some shut eye. 
I am now very dependent on this traffic pattern of noise, from cars traveling 65 miles per hour or more. I don't know how I'll ever get to sleep once I visit home. It's funny what you can get used to.

Thursday, January 19, 2012

Alone in a quiet room. How did you get here?

I certainly did not get here by accident. Its not as if you could incorrectly read a map and end up driving to the opposite side of the United States. However, if you had one too many, at a bar in an airport, I could see how someone could try and board the wrong flight. I doubt you'd make it on the plane, but cheers for trying.
No, I got here very much on purpose. I fell in love with the idea of moving to San Francisco in the summer of 2009. I had finished my fourth semester at EMCC and had applied to several four year colleges. I had gotten accepted to a few universities in New England, some of which my family thought were already too far away; but I thought they were not far enough. So I began a search for a new place to call home. A place without snow, with a lot of good schools, and in an urban setting. San Francisco and its surrounding cities, called the Bay Area, seemed like a perfect fit.
After a year of scrupulous planning (which doesn't seem like a long time because it's not) and saving my hard earned waitressing money, I packed all of my prized possessions and essentials into my 2006 Chevrolet Aveo; and headed west.
My boyfriend, who accompanied me in this journey, and I headed out in late August. I easily put 3,500 plus miles on that poor little hatchback and traveling through the country with a packed car was no easy feat. We took a route that directed us primarily north west and we made it about six days, with three days of resting in Las Vegas. 
Now I have made this place my home. After traveling by car, New England seems so far away, but it's only a 6 hour flight!